Friday, December 12, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #12

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#TheFinalCountdown
I was on the ground. I lost my last chance to say “sorry” to Ashwin. So this is the end. Now everything is dead dark. My head hurts, I wonder if I got shot in my head too. So at last am gonna meet my girl in heaven and that thought alone made me happy. Hope we don’t end up in hell. My brain was processing all these thoughts and my head throbs with pain. I opened my eyes.
I saw the blue sky, the passing cloud and also I was lying beneath a tree. I felt tired and wondered what part of the world is this? My eyes started to search for Aasha and soon found her looking at me anxiously. Her lips moved but no sound came out. Wait. I shook my head and tried to receive the sounds around me. She said, “Wake up… What happened?”
I got up from the ground. My head was spinning and I didn’t know what happened. Where in the world am I? Aasha touched my forehead slightly asking, “Are you okay now?” I stared back at her blankly. She took my hand and started to walk ahead. I looked around and… I know that place.
It was that bus stop where this story began. I checked the date and time on my mobile, ‘12th August, 8:10 am’. I was going to drop her in the bus stop. Hope you remember that I dashed on a tree in Episode 1. That is why my head throbs and I can’t believe that I had a shock dream, well nightmare, in that few minutes. I really didn’t know if I was dead or alive. I felt like I was in the inception movie.
Movies had taught me that in one second humans can have a million dreams and can get tired of it. In my case, I dreamt of a dreadful 18 days. I am alive and so is Aasha. We are alive and this thought echoed in my head repeatedly as I was walking her towards her bus stop. We almost reached the stop. Aasha stopped, turned at me and said, “I can cross the road by myself. Go home and treat your head.” Then she started to move away. Suddenly it dawned on my dumb head and I reacted instantly searching for something around. I found that black car, the same number plate as in my dream with Ashwin in the driver seat.
My dream ran again in my mind in a fast forward motion. I don’t know how or why that was happening then but I knew that I had only few seconds to stop that nightmare from becoming real. I was on the road, moving towards his car, as I saw him watching my girl, raising his car accelerator. I felt frustrated and got closer to his car. At last his eyes met mine and he stopped the car. He was staring at me for few moments before he got out of his car. The moment he was out of his car, I hugged him tightly and shouted, “I am sorry… I am sorry…,” as loud as I can while trying to lock the already flowing tears behind my eyes.
Ashwin was in a complete shock as he never expected that. But he recovered soon and hugged me back as his lips smiled and eyes glistening with tears. He said, “No problem man. Cool.” I kept on apologizing while he tried to soothe me with warm words. Aasha saw us and came running towards us with joy. In that moment I dialed a number and as Aasha got closer, I put the mobile in my shirt front pocket.
Aasha exclaimed, “Hey Ashwin! How are you? Such a long time!” I interrupted her saying, “Aasha, I am sorry.” She, with a cute smile on her lips asked me, “What? Why?” Ashwin held my hand and nodded his head, signaling me to keep quiet. I dropped his hand and said, “It’s already late and I must apologize at least now.” I turned towards Aasha and confessed everything to her and finished the dark side of the story to her with an apology.
Once I apologized, as expected, I got a nice slap from her. Guess she used all her strength; I had to try hard to stop my hand from rubbing my cheek. I dropped down my head in guilt and said, “I am so sorry.”
Suddenly, she jumped and hugged me tightly (well, she had to jump to reach my height). Crying she asked me, “Why didn’t you tell me that earlier?” Ashwin who was watching us till then, replied her before I could, “Because he loves you a lot and didn’t like to let you down for any reason, same as me.” Aasha looked at me and asked, “Did you think I would hate you? You did all that for me.Though, what you did was wrong, how could I hate you?”
Saying this, she hugged me tightly and whispered, “I love you” in my ears and placed a kiss on my cheek. Ashwin laughed and winked at her and she turned his face away from us. He smiled and his happiness was visible in his face. Aasha let go of me and started to enquire Ashwin about his love story with Jessica. I could see them taking back their friendship from where they had left it during our college days.
I moved away from them slowly and picked up the mobile which was on call for the past ten minutes and said, “I am sorry.” There was silence in the other end. I asked, “Hope you heard the whole story?” and I got the reply, “hmm.” I sighed with relief and again apologized, “I am sorry, Jessica.” Yes, at last I got the guts to apologize to her and so I had dialed Jessica. After few silent minutes, I heard her cry.
She recovered soon and asked me, “How was the slap?” I hid my laughter and replied, “Not as much as yours. Hope I would get a better slap when we meet?”She replied softly, “Of course, you would. I don’t know how long it would take me to forgive you, after all what you did to me. Till then never ever appear before me. If you do, then I might kill you.” She cut the line and I smiled with relief.
I smiled happily after a long time. I got back to my friends and Ashwin gave me his office card and asked me to join his company. I hesitated and Aasha signaled me to take it and so I did.
Ashwin dropped us in my home and Aasha invited him to come inside. Ashwin asked me, How did you know about my love and all?” I smiled and replied, “I will reveal that secret in your marriage.” He smiled and said, “Machi, wait! I will park my car and join you.” I nodded and went inside as he left to park his car. Then he got a call from an unknown number. He picked up the call and said, “Hello?” The person in the other end took only few seconds to apologize, unlike me. He smiled and replied, “I love you,” and came running inside our home with joy.
***Happy Ending***
Story started at August # 12 and ends with Episode # 12
“I really do not know how to justify the dream and the happenings in my life. Still, I cannot believe it. But it taught me that there are some things in the world that man cannot yet understand. It can wield its power in any form. It can be love, affection, friendship or may be God. Whatever it is, it helped me to understand me and correct myself. I will never know if such kind of miracle would ever happen to anyone. But I know that this happened in my life and I got my final chance to apologize and correct my mistake. So the moral of the story is not to wait for a miracle to correct your mistake but to do it immediately. You may not be lucky with miracles like me and so if you had to apologize to someone, please don’t hesitate and do it now. That one word ‘Sorry’ might bring miracles to you, who knows? ‘The word Sorry can make, a saint a sinner and, a sinner a saint’ are not just empty words.”
I really thank Vishok Narayan and Anitha kalaiselvi who helped me a lot with editing and drafting till the last moment.
I dedicate this story to my best buddies Dhilip Maniraj, Ashwin Prem Solomon and Anitha kalaiselvi.
I love to present this novel to Vishok Narayan as a gift to his marriage.
And it is also a special dedication to Kashiba Aasha Shaheen.
Thank you all,
-K.B.Ashwath Kumar

Saturday, November 22, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #11

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#PreClimax
It was Monday morning. I was sitting on the rocking chair by the window and was wandering through my college memories when Dhilip called me from the window. “Hurry up, let’s go to Thiruvanmiyur depot to find out the culprit who owns that car.” I came back to the reality. Yes, it’s no time to feel lost in my sorrows but to catch that bloody killer who killed my wife and make him pay for his sins. So we got inside his car and started our mission.
It took half an hour to reach the depot. “Wait in the car” said Dhilip and started towards the RTO office. He still had ten more steps to the entrance when an officer from the depot appeared before him and said, “Sorry for the delay sir. This is the address you asked for.” Dhilip looked at the address thoughtfully for a while. Suddenly his expression changed into a strange familiarity look as if he knew the person. He hurried back towards the car and we started from there. “Now where are we going?” I asked him. “Tidal park, Wipro” he said. “There works our culprit.” I was wondering who it could be while Dhilip opened a car lock near the driver seat and checked for his gun if that was loaded. Though I was frightened, I realized his care for me to take my problem as his.
The car entered the Tidal Park and we reached the company where Dhilip said we could find the culprit. Dhilip was asking the receptionist about that person while I was watching him from a distance. The receptionist called him through phone and asked us to wait in the waiting hall opposite her. I didn’t have a clue about whom we came to meet and what to do with him when we meet. Of course we aren’t here to enquire about his well being and his life events after killing my girl. But I felt completely lost. What are you supposed to say or ask to the person who killed your wife? Only possible question would be ‘why?’ Completely confused, I was waiting for an unknown person in that large hall; Waiting to get my answers. Dhilip was still talking to the receptionist while I sat on a chair with my head in my hands, trying to sort out all the happenings till now.
I felt someone approaching me, thinking that to be Dhilip I said, “Hey Dhilip, just say what’s goin….” I went speechless looking at the person before me. I was trying to catch my breath while that person gently smiled and sat before me. “So it takes 18 days for you to find me? That’s too long.” He looked amused and sad. Yes, I didn’t see him coming.
“Ashwin” I said under my breath slowly.
“She was our friend” I said in a broken voice after few seconds.
“My friend” he corrected me.
Suppressing my surging anger I said, “Your friend? That’s right. How could you do that to your friend?”
“Because I had to” he replied.
I was looking at him like a mad man. He got up and started to pace in the room while I was still searching words in every language I knew to express myself. He stopped suddenly and turned towards me and said, “You forget everything Ashwath and that’s the problem for everything. You are the one who started it, so don’t look at me like a fairy tale villain. You are the new fashioned villain of this generation.”
I looked at him with incomprehension. He came back, sat before me and looking into my eyes asked furiously, “Hope you don’t remember that ‘Pink chart’?”
Looking at my blank expression he continued, “You comfortably forget everything and that is the cause of every problem you are having now. You should have said something that day when everyone blamed me for your deed. Why? Why didn’t you?”
I was stumbling with my words and muttered, “What?”
“Stop pretending Ashwath. I know it was you who stuck that chart in front of ladies toilet. I saw you. I don’t blame you for that. I know you did that for Aasha. You wanted to show off to Aasha and so you embarrassed Jessica, as Aasha and Jessica hated each other.”
“I tried to save you. I tried to remove that chart after you left for the class but couldn’t as many staffs came there that time. You and your heroism.” He paused. I lowered my head with shame and was filled with guilt for doing such a low deed. “Your heroisms weren’t heroic when I took your place for that deed and was forced out of the hostel. You never stood up for me and that hurts me more.”
He continued, “I waited for you to say that one word. Even after college days I didn’t heard that word from you. Not only me, Aasha too didn’t get that from you. Looks like the word ‘sorry’ never existed in your dictionary. You avoid apologizing even to Aasha, after your fights. Yet she loved you and managed a lot after your marriage with her. She gave you all her love. What is that you gave her in return? Your pride? Ego? I tried to shut up till you apologize, but you didn’t. I didn’t want to break your love even when I was to punish for your crimes. I never told this matter to anyone till now.”
I started to shiver at his words and my conscience was eating my insides. “Why did you kill her then? It should have been me. Why, Ash? Why her?” I managed to ask him. He removed his specs and said in a low voice, “When I saw you two there I remembered…… Jessica” and he started to cry. I was shocked, “What! You and Jessica???” before I could complete my sentence he replied, “Yes, I love her. From the day we met, I was in love with her. I was waiting for that Valentine’s Day, just like you, to propose to my girl. That pink chart was my plan to propose to her. I made Vishok to make her portrait so that I could present it to her when I proposed to her. I felt in my heart that Jessica too had feelings for me before you ruined it all.
You are the one who ruined my life Ashwath. Because of you I was forced to stay away from hostel, lost my love, lost my best friend and also lost my trust on you. I know Jessica would never call me again but you should have. You should have apologized, shouldn’t you? I used to see Aasha at that bus stop everyday and thought of talking to her but decided to confess the truth only after receiving your apology. But that day, I couldn’t control my temper seeing you two together with that happy look on your face. I remembered Jessica all of a sudden that made me lose my temper and before I ealized what I was doing everything just happened. I still love Jessica, as you can see in my car no. plate her date of birth. It was my anger that made me act so selfish. I controlled myself all these years but those seconds….. I just lost myself to my anger and did such a terrible mistake…
Tell me am I the only one to blame? Did I kill her? Whose fault is all this? Don’t you think you are the one who is responsible?”
I dropped to the floor and broke into tears. “Yes, it was my fault. I ruined your life” saying these I started to cry more. Ashwin leaned closer to me and said, “Machi, you still refuse to say sorry.” I slowly looked into his eyes and stood up. Suddenly then I heard the sound of someone loading gun behind my back. “Oh God! No! Dhilip, wait” I said turning back.
“Shut up fool. If he had a heart for you he wouldn’t have killed your wife. I know what to do with this guy who killed your wife.”
Dhilip turned towards Ashwin and said, “Ashwath only broke your love and friendship with his ego but you took his girl’s life. You are the one who ruined his life. He could have apologized any other day and you could have got your love back at any moment in your life. But you cannot bring his wife back alive, can you? Answer me you bas!@3.”
Dhilip was closing in on Ashwin with his gun pointing towards him. Ashwin got up bravely and said, “Go ahead, Dhilip. Shoot me. If it’s not by your hand today, I will be doing the same with my hands tomorrow. I will be happy to die by the hands of my friend’s best friend. I really love this friendship and love circle we all draw around you, Ashwath. Me, Aasha and now (he points Dhilip) him. Good bye, Ashwath.”
I tried to stop these two idiots from doing another insane act as I don’t want another death on my hand. I tried to grab the gun from Dhilip’s hand as he pulled the trigger. I see blood splattered on Dhilip’s shirt as I fell down with the gun in my hand and blood on Ashwin’s shirt too.
I was on the floor and my friends tried to catch me. Only then I realized that it was I who took the bullet and the blood splattered on their shirt was mine. Because of my ego, I lost my best friend, my wife and then rewarded with a bullet by the hands of my own best friend. I saw them houting and crying for me, their faces in agony and felt my lids heavy and closing . I forced myself to say, “I am S….” and was engulfed in darkness.
Even at those last moments of my life, I couldn’t say “I am sorry” to my friend.
To be contd……
Picture abhi bhaki hai.
Last episode coming soon…

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #10

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#FinalCollegeDays
It was our final year in college. Days were getting dull, mostly without Ashwin . It’s nearly a year and we don’t have a person between us, Aasha and me, to disturb us, We miss him. Initially, we used to wonder about Ashwin that when would he leave us alone, to have a romantic chat; But now we have a lot of time for romance but we don't talk much about our personal interests. It’s really painful for both of us because we were also responsible for Ashwin’s suspension. Meanwhile, Jessica moved to another college due to that incident, out of her own interest. Nothing much was known about her, in the aftermath. Ashwin visits the college only during the exams; But he never talked to us. Even though Aasha tried her best to convince him, he never gave up on his vow of silence. For us, with sadness filled in the air, the days were moving like a sloth.
One fine day, in the classroom, we were eagerly listening to a very boring lecture, with notes spontaneously being written by the front-benchers. All of a sudden, there was a voice from the classroom doorstep. It was Kumar anna, who came with a notice in his hand. It almost happens daily with him, he has a notice in his hand and appeared at our classroom's doorstep. But this time it was some special news. It was about an inter college cultural meet. And our college correspondent had recommended all of us to take part in it. This was because the college which was hosting this mega event is a medical college and the chairman of that college was a close friend of our correspondent.
Also, this was the first time they had extended the invitations to engineering colleges. Everyone started discussing about taking part in it. Aasha turned towards me and asked me, ”Are we going to take part?!”. With some uneasy reaction I scratched my head and said, “No.” and I started to move out of the class. She followed me swiftly and asked, “Why? Normally, we do the ’Adzap’, but why not this time?”. I told her that there really was no use in doing it without Ashwin. But she wanted us to take part in it to overcome the past. But I moved silently away from that place without responding. After I moved a few steps she called out me and asked, “Can I take that as an yes?”. I gave a halfhearted smile and said, “as you wish”. She threw a happy smile on me, which was missing from her face for a long time. On seeing that smile I took a decision to propose her during the eve of the cultural meet, even though we know each others intention, we have never expressed it and I thought that she would be happy if I put this love of ours on the record, at least before the end of our college life.
We were on our way for the cultural meet at the Vellore CCM Medical College. Since it was also the last working day for our academic year, we had all planned to leave to our respective home-towns after the event. She was preparing sincerely for the program, in which we were to participate, whereas I was sincerely rehearsing on how to make the "proposal", finally. Our college bus was just about 2 hours drive away from Vellore. It was a 3 hour journey. Everyone of us was dancing, singing and chit-chating all over the bus. Usually, Ashwin was the one who takes in charge of whatever competition it may be and we used to go about it accordingly. But, this time Aasha took the responsibility and she was more or less able to fill-in for Ashwin.
With the bus packed with entertainers, what else could we expect? The air was filled with art. Aakash composed a new song of his own and he was in the process of giving lyrics for it. It started something like “Magudi… Magudi…”, it truly sounded like a peppy Tamil rock song. Was really funny though and we enjoyed the song, everyone of us was singing it aloud all along the journey. In the back seat, was Vishok, practicing for the ‘variety performance’ category he was gonna do a fusion dance. He used to dance pretty well. Also he would take part in our ‘Adzap’ as well. With all these preparations and some junior students we entered the CCM Medical College, Vellore.
After we entered the college one word that came out of my mouth was ”Wow!!!”. I had never seen such wonderful, beautiful and gorgeous girls in sarees before. I thought it was just me who felt that way; but when I turned towards my left, I saw Vishok, Aakash, Bibu and the rest of the bus with the very same reaction. After that I turned to my right and saw Aasha’s reaction. She was having her palm on her forehead and gave me a pathetic look, as I shrugged my shoulders. She shouted, ”Enough everyone, now get down from the bus and follow me!”. What to do? It’s a man's thing. Even Darwin had proved it, decades back.
After a long stroll in the college campus, we entered the reception of the cultural meet center. They named it as ‘PEGASUS’, I just thought "Whatever.." , Aasha was filling the forms for all of us and she was discussing about the program timing with those reception girls. Me and Co. were keenly admiring those beautiful girls and were trying to find out their names from their ID tags. One was “Shivani” and the other one was “Roopa…”, just before we were done, Aasha stopped me with a raging look. If I understood one thing from this, it was that never give room for your inner urges especially when your girl friend is around. After filling the form they were asking for the team name. Before Aasha even began her reply, I cut her short and said, “Agni! Team Agni”. Everyone's reaction was "Not again!". I don’t know where or when I started using this name or about how it came into my mind, but what I know is, whenever someone asked for a team name I use to spontaneously name it as ‘Team Agni’.
Everyone started to move to their event spots. Vishok, Bibu, Aakash and I went to the Gaming Zone. Aasha was preparing others for their respective events, and she was less interested in games, so I was sure that she wouldn't come to the gaming zone, So I got ready for the "admiring beauty" event, you definitely know what I mean. Our Admad program was scheduled to start at 12:00 pm that afternoon and Vishok's dance program was scheduled at 2:00pm. But here we were, eagerly playing games at the gaming zone. And there we saw a girl. she was the one who conducted the event. And she had draped herself in a stunning blue saree. Vishok, Aakash and I were exclaiming as if we were looking at 'VTV Jessi’. Meanwhile, Bibu was seriously into the game, so the three of us started to follow her and were laughing behind her for no reason. Vishok took my mobile and planned to take a pic of Aakash and me. by keeping her inside the frame. So we were tailing her and were giving poses near her to bring her inside the frame.
After a few snaps she found out what we were trying to do and we saw that she was picking up her phone to inform someone about this. So, we felt it was good to move away from that place, but Bibu was desperate to play one more game, he had know idea of what was happening around him. Eventually, we convinced him and rushed out from that zone. On seeing us move out, the girl was ferocious and started barking at the person in the other end of the phone, urging him/her to come sooner to the games lab. We were literally running down the stairs and out of nowhere Vishok bumped into a guy's shoulder, due to which the other guy's ID card flew and landed down. I was just able to get a glimpse of the name in card as 'George' and wasting little time, Vishok picked it up and handed it back to him, with the quickest apology possible and then we vanished from that zone.
It was really a strange experience. Getting into trouble in another college. But somehow we escaped from that place. We went to meet Aasha, it looked like she was eagerly waiting for our arrival as our Adzap program was about to begin in minutes. As we had forgotten all the things, we started to make last minute preparations, as usual, for the performance. Aasha borrowed my phone to make a call since her mobile's battery was down.
The event began and our program was the first on the stage. It was a 5 minute skit, we did our best. After the performance,Vishok ran to the cafeteria along with Bibu, as he was very hungry and he had to perform his dance in a little while. Meanwhile, Aakash was seriously watching the other Adzap performances. And again it was just Aasha and me, who are left in each other's company, as usual. I had a bulb sparkling above my head, I felt like this was the best chance I'd get to make the proposal. So, I started with quizzing her like "Shall we talk something?", she reflexed with a "What?". “About the things we were left to talk on similar occasions?”, I replied. She got it and said, “Not here. Let’s move to some other quiet place to talk about it.” I was a bit surprised by her understanding skills. After reaching an empty lecture hall, she turned to the wall and said, “Now you can tell”. After hearing those words I was shivering and I uttered, “I.. Lo..”. Suddenly my phone rang.
Oh God not again!, "Who the F!@# is calling now?", I cried in my mind, pulling out my phone, it was Vishok. I tried to disconnect but Aasha asked me to pick it up and she said “you can tell me after talking with him. No probs, I will wait”. With a sense of rage I answered the call. “Come quickly. I am waiting near dining hall” he said and disconnected the call in a jiffy. I really don’t know why he talked like this. I asked Aasha to wait and promised her that I will be back in under a minute, as I rushed to the cafeteria.
As I reached there, I started searching for him, suddenly I felt a hand on my back. It was Bibu. He was standing alone. I was confused and I asked him that "Why did Vishok ask me to come here and where is he now?". ”I will tell you everything. First you take out your mobile.” he said. I didn't understand what was happening, so I silently took my mobile out and handed it over to Bibu. Suddenly a person plucked my mobile from his hand and by that time, nearly some 8 people were surrounding us. I knew that it was some big problem, but what?. Then I looked at the guy who took my mobile. It was George, the one we ran into, while we were running away from the game zone.
And my senses already figured out the cause ‘Hand clicking, Girl problem’. George asked me for the photo we took. Bibu slightly turned towards me and gave quite an anger like reaction ”What have you done?” and I replied with a silence. George gave the phone to the another short guy who was one among the eight and then he turned towards me. “How dare you took a snap of ‘Monisha’?!”, asked George, to me. Actually he was trying to threaten me but I was getting bit excited about coming to know her name. Then I replied, "We didn’t take any snap of your girl. In fact she was not that much of a pretty girl to get inside my mobile phone". George was angered by this and came closer to pull my collar but Bibu came in-between us and he pushed George away from me. And suddenly all the other students from the surrounding came and stopped George from fighting with us. He was still shouting at us; a person from the opposite gang took us aside and he said, "Sorry guys, that’s his girlfriend and that's why he is behaving like this. For an instance, if we do the same in your college, will you leave us just like that?”. I was speechless, after hearing those words and a bit afraid, on thinking about what they would do to me after finding her photo in my mobile.
A guy was searching that photo in my mobile and George was eagerly waiting for the moment to break my nose, I mean physically, with evidence. After a long search that guy told George, “There is nothing in it”. More than George I was surprised a lot on hearing that. George was confused and he ordered him to check it again but he wasn't able to find anything because there wasn't any photo of that girl. George got frustrated and he shouted at his friend and he sat on a chair with his brain thinking. Suddenly, I asked him, "Where is Vishok?". "He is with us safely and we won’t leave him unless we get the photos", he replied. It was really bad to see our friend being held as a hostage in another college, for a silly reason. I don’t know how he feels right now. "Is he being tortured by these over reacting schmucks?", that was the thought going on my mind. George stood up and said that he would be taking the phone with him and will confirm it with her girlfriend and only then he will let Vishok go. Bibu tried a lot to convince them but they were purely idiotic. They started their bikes which was parked outside the cafeteria and left, It was quite a big campus and it was definitely difficult to follow them. We were cornered and were helpless. But the only hope that we had was that there would be no photo in the mobile and if they don't find anything, then they will surely have to let him go.
Bibu and I started to walk slowly towards the Auditorium. Aasha and Aakash came in search of Vishok. We narrated the entire episode to them. And I promised them that he will be back for sure. Aasha replied,”OH MY GOD! What the hell have you done? Is he safe?”. I nodded my head. Then Aakash interrupted ,”Okay, it’s running out of time and they are going to call our team. Who is gonna perform now?”. We were tensed, angered, silenced and were in completed frustration. At one point, Aasha broke the silence and came out with an idea. She turned towards Aakash and said "This is the right time to show everyone what you got.", Bibu and I understood her and we wore a grin and looked at Aakash and said,”Come on Aakash lets have the ‘Magudi’ song, right now.” Aakash was taken aback by surprise and asked us that do we really have to perform that right now for God's sake. We gave a big nod. Then Aakash went back a few steps and looked at us with the same grin and said, "Come on guys let's change the game!".
I knew that it was going to be an exciting experience for us now. We were on stage and now we had Aakash on the mic. Bibu handled the keyboard. Aasha and I were about to do the chorus part. Akash clapped his hands a couple of times to get everyone's attention. And as the auditorium became silent, he said "One, two, three" and the song began . Aakash started song, ”Maghudi…. Maghudi”, with his peppy voice and the song was electrifying with the rap done by Bibu in between, I was echoing the word ‘Maghudi' and Aasha made hiccup sounds which was placed inbetween the two consecutive "Maghudi", as like the Beatles. And this is how we started the song. It was a 4 minute song and on hearing the catchy words “Maghudi… Maghudi…” all the audience in the front row laughed out loud, I guess they were the judges and all others we enjoying it.
Two minutes into the song, the guys from the last row stood up and clapped in rhythm. The lyrics “Maghudi… Maghudi…” came 20 times in the 4 minute song, whenever those words came everyone got excited and they all joined in on the chorus with me, the sound level kept increasing on each chorus. Probably for the final “Maghudi… Maghudi…” everyone joined the chorus including the CMC College principal and his daughter. It became an electrifying performance. After the song we took a bow and on the way down the backstage everyone came near Aakash and asked ,”Which movie this song is from? Is this from an upcoming Dhanush movie?”. He replied with a proud smile, ”This is my own composition.” He pointed at me to the guy who asked him about the song and said "He will be a director one day, on that day this song will be in his movie.”. I really had a Goosebumps on hearing that. he gave me a winky smile and left. The most exciting moment. (But this song has somehow traveled and has found its place in a Maniratanam movie, with a different tune though).
We came out of the auditorium, We were jumping in the air and were enjoying our moment of fame and suddenly we saw a person in front of us. It was Vishok. Amidst this joy, we really forgot the person who was held as an hostage, due to our deeds. He frowned his eyebrows and was sweating heavily. We were speechless and afraid that he would kill us. When we moved closer we heard him muttering something which sounded something like ”Maghudi… Maghudi…”. He smiled and all of us smiled and he ran towards us and hugged Aakash real tight in great joy. We had little tears on our eyes. Aftermath that moment of explanations, Vishok passed me my mobile and Bibu apologized to Vishok for allowing them to take him away in the cafeteria, But Vishok just smiled and replied, ”All is well!!!”.
Then on, everything was smooth that day. We were waiting for the final act of the day, results. Our team participated in two programs, we were waiting for the final words from the stage. Most of the prizes went to the home side as usual and many stupids were shouting for anyone who was receiving the prize. I was searching for Aasha all over the area. At that instance, my mobile beeped. It was a message from Aasha, "Charged my mobile. Come here, I am waiting back stage. It’s the right moment to say this, a surprise is waiting for you. You need to come here within two mins”. This is f$&*ing awesome, I went crazy in my mind. I reached there exactly in 50 seconds. She was there, standing, literally, leaning against a pillar. She threw a smile and said, “Come here soon. Its already time”. So I ran close to her and I was breathing heavily. She said, “Lend me your ears”. So I bent to lend my ears and she said, “The surprise is...... we got the first prize and I got the news from Shivani”.
I was totally blank at that moment and I asked her "That's great! but is this the only reason you called me". ”Yes, what else did you think?” she replied. I told nothing and started to walk back slowly to the stage. But I suddenly asked her for which we got first prize?. Before she even replied me, I heard the loud announcement and a happy growl from Aakash on stage, along with Bibu. At that very moment Aasha and I ran fast and joined them on the stage with great joy. It was the most memorable moment for us and we kept jumping and smiling on stage. We left the college campus with much joy than we had expected.
We reached the railway station to send Aasha off to her home town for study holidays. She was gonna leave straight from Vellore. Aakash and Vishok went to buy food and water bottle for her. I was talking with her. I know that am gonna miss her in these holidays and I was thinking philosophically that nothing happened as per plan. We planned to prepare for Adzap but we didn’t get a prize for that, but we never expected us to sing a song, we not only sang but got the first prize with great response. Vishok prepared for the dance for many days but he wasn't even able to perform on the day. Everything happened was unexpected and the most evident failure was the proposal plan. It was an utter failure, but I made up my mind to give it a try now.
But it was time and the locomotive pilot honked the loud horn. Aakash and Vishok were running from the tail of the train, with the food and water bottle. I asked them, “Didn’t you find any shop nearer? Why did you go that much far?”. “Only then we can reach late”, they replied with a laugh, Suddenly Vishok's phone rang, so he took it out, the caller's name displayed as "MONISHA", We were all in shock.He said "I can explain that". Actually the great George had left the hostage with his girl friend Monisha, in order to threaten us and get the photo, but meanwhile our guy had a moment of romance and has got into the good books of his girl friend.I know that George and Co. were a bunch of idiots but I never thought that he will make them look more idiotic. We all burst out with laughter. The train started to move and she got into the train waved her hand at us. I bid her adieu and turned.
Instantly, my phone beeped in seconds. It was from Aasha. I turned to look at the train, as well as I opened the text simultaneously, Vishok handed a chalk piece and said that it was a freebie for buying the water bottle. he moved away quickly. I said, ”What? Free for water bottle?!”. I just forgot what I was thinking. Then it just struck me,I opened the text and it said, ”Do you think that was the only surprise that I have?”. After seeing that I looked at the train. The last carriage was about to cross me. Aasha grabbed the handle and peeped out of the door with a smile and shouted, " Don't look at me now, look behind the last garage, Idiot!". As soon as she said, the last carriage crossed me.
At the back of the last carriage, down to the letter ‘X’ I saw the words that I would never forget, “I Love You!”. She winked at me with a smile and went back in. Finally this also happened....as I told you all "Not according to plan". "I too Love you Aasha".

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #9

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#ThePinkChart
I was speechless when I saw Aasha being beaten up by jessica. It all happened in a flash. Tears were rolling down from her eyes and her cheek became so red. Its quite interesting to watch as well as quite a difficult task to stop two girls fighting . But its my Aasha, so I need to stop this fight. I shouted at Jessica "Hey! stop it! How do know that she did this?!"
She took a deep breath and pointed her finger towards our desk and said, "I saw the pink chart on your desk, none other can do this to me, other than my arch enemy". I went silent again. And I had no words to argue. Aasha opened her mouth to speak, but her voice could not come out as she cried and was gasping heavily, like a child. Everyone stood silent and finally words came from Aasha ,"I didn't do it!". Jessica stared at Aasha with rage and said in an arrogant voice that she is gonna complain about this to the principal.
Everyone started moving out of the class in silence. The class started with fun and ended in a great tragedy. Aasha  was crying and she was uttering the same sentence to me ,"I didn't do that". I told her, "I know and please leave this matter for a moment". But she was repeatedly saying that same thing again and again. I felt really bad for her. she paused for a brief moment and picked up the pink chart. I didn't know what she saw on that, but suddenly her face turned pale and she gave a totally abnormal reaction. She was staring at the chart for a minute. And I slowly asked,"Are you all right? Shall we move?" She replied in a grumbling tone,"No, Not yet over. Come with me".
Soon after completing the sentence, she rushed out of the class by clutching my wrist with her palm. I really didn't know what she found out and why she behaved like that. With chaos, I followed her. She dragged me along with her to the hostel. A guy was standing outside the hostel, facing the entrance, talking to someone on phone. Aasha tapped his shoulder, he turned around. It was Vishok. She showed the chart to him and said,"Nice art Vishok. Can I get some thing like this?". All of a sudden Vishok held his head down as if he felt ashamed on seeing us. I hadn't really thought that he would do such a thing. But after seeing his reaction I was really shocked and I really had no idea how she found that out. Vishok stayed silent for a moment and he said,"I didn't expect this would happen". Aasha replied with a strong voice,"Then, what did you expect to happen?". He said ,"That he will do like this". 'He!?!?.. Who is that he?', this was the question running on my mind. Vishok continued ,"He requested me so much, to draw her picture, so I couldn't deny. But I didn't know why he wanted it and why he did this with it.". I buzzed him by saying,"If that means you didn't stick the chart there, then who is that he?". With a bit of hesitation he uttered the name,"Ashwin".
After hearing that name Aasha literally sat down on the floor as if she had fainted. I really understand how she would have felt. Tears started to roll down from her eyes. She held her fore head with her hand and said, "I never expected this in my life". I didn't have  any words to console her. I just told,"I don't beleive that he might have done this". "After all this you still believe that he didn't do it?",asked Aasha. In between this conversation between me and Aasha, we heard a voice from our back, it was Ashwin. Aasha turn back straightly, wiped her tears off and walked towards him furiously.
She was standing in front of him. He said,"I am terribly sorry for what happened.". Aasha had an ironic smile on her face and she said,"It all happened as you expected. right?". Ashwin delivered an annoying expression and said,"What? what did I expect to happen?". She shouted ,"Don't act any more you cheat. Vishok told us everything". Ashwin turned towards Vishok and made a reaction as if he was asking,"Why?". Then he told Aasha that he will be explaining everything clearly to Aasha in person after sometime and told her to forget this for a moment. Before Ashwin completed, Aasha suddenly grabbed his collar with anger and said,"Now tell me, why the F!@#$ you stick that chart and why you framed me for this?". Ashwin suddenly pushed her hand aside and replied," Be sensible Aasha, Why should I do that and Why would I frame you? I really didn't do such a thing and I would never". Aasha again started to shout that she is not ready to believe him and said not going to talk to him anymore.
I have seen Aasha crying for many times. But after she said that word, it was the first time I saw Ashwin crying. Ashwin started asking repeatedly,"You don't believe me Aasha?. I am your friend from childhood. You don't believe me.?" Without any reply she turned the opposite direction and kept mum. I don't know whom to support and whom to advice and I was totally confused with this problem. All of sudden a new problem came into picture. Jessica was clapping as like a Hindi film villain, from behind us. She had listened to all that was said. And she shouted in anger that she won't leave each and everyone who did this to her. And she quoted the word ,"I will kill you both, you F!@$# A!@!##".
Ashwin started crying again heavily, but Aasha didn't even open her mouth. She headed towards her scooty. Ashwin went behind her. She kick started it. Now Ashwin wiped his tears off and said in a stiff voice that If she doesn't talk to him now, then he won't talk to her anymore. She delivered a vexed smile, by turning to the other side, she removed the friendship band from her wrist and threw it on the ground, which flew by Ashwin's face and fell on the ground. She raced her scooter and went far away from Ashwin.
Now Ashwin face was engulfing with anger. He headed to the hostel. I tried to convince him by saying many thing on the way to the hostel. But he didn't even open his mouth. He walked straightly towards the hostel gate. The moment we entered the hostel, a junior boy came and told Ashwin that the warden wanted to see him. He went into the warden's room and door closed with a bang. I had no idea about what was going on inside. I started climbing the stairs to my room. It was more than half an hour they were talking inside. It started to look pretty serious to me. And finally the door opened and I was shocked by seeing our principal coming outside the warden's room. Ashwin came to the room and he started packing his things. He was not willing to respond to my queries. But I really needed to know what was happening. And finally I heard the voice, at our doorstep, from the Warden. He shouted in a strong tone ,"I need you to vacate in 30 minutes. Understand?", which was rhetorical question. I was dumbstruck on hearing this.
Bibu came rushing in from the other wing of the hostel and told me that Ashwin was suspended  for the rest of the college days and he is permitted only to write the internals and the final exams. Its too much to punish a person for such a cheap thing. We know that, he has been expelled just because of Magnus's influence since her father is also a board member of the college. Her voice still echoed in my mind "I will kill each and everyone of you". She had succeeded. She had almost killed our friendship. Now nothing is my hand. As Ashwin began to walk with his things he told Bibu to get him a cab.
He handed the room key, without looking at me. He didn't even speak to me. I felt like I was cornered. Tears were about to roll down my cheek. Every others helped him in packing and carrying his luggage and they told him to share the room with Aakash for few days. He went inside the cab and it almost moved. At that moment he turned towards me and asked me to come closer to him. I ran towards him and he slowly asked me,"Do you want to tell me something or shall I leave?". I really had no answer for that question and started to break out with tears by repeating his name. After hearing me , he said,"That's fine. I hope you don't have anything to say. Good bye!."
That was the last time I saw him in the hostel. I missed him. 
To be Continued...

Sunday, May 18, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #8

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#CollegeDays
Two years of my college days had passed. I had great fun with Aasha and Ashwin and eventually we all became close friends. As a custom, we used to surprise each other on our birthdays, hang out together and did many exciting and crazy things together. Aasha and me, our fights and her cries and her smiles and laughters became my routine. The fights between both of us would come and go in a jiffy, yet those brought really close. Finally, both of us were falling in love with each other, we just had to propose. I was waiting for a suitable day to propose and that day finally arrived, valentine’s day (I know what you guys think, but still the craze for that day is alive in girls, believe me.)
Also another set of lot of things happened in these past 2 years. We did party with the outside world, other than just three of us. Also we indulged in few fights. Fights, especially between Aasha and Jessica Magnus, which got worse day by day, and in the end they didn't talk for a complete year.
That day, I entered the class and it was quite dramatic. Everyone was in colourful dress, excitement bubbling in most of their eyes; also many had gifts for their loved ones, why is every one so explicit?, its okay, because it makes me feel comfortable. I was early to college that day, than usual. I relaxed on my seat. Then I got myself engaged in peeking into other’s bags in order check out the special gifts that they had brought for their loved ones. I had to wait for my girl as she will be obviously late, as usual.
Later I noticed something protruding from the bag nearby. It was Ashwin’s bag and it had a pink colored chart, probably his gift for his lover. But who could it be? Surprisingly, I couldn’t make a single guess. I had thoughts of opening that and suddenly Aasha entered the class and sat near me. She was wearing a saffron colored pattiyala with white stripes on it. It looked like she too was ready for confession. I was waiting for that moment and she too seemed tensed. I turned towards her and said, “Hi…” She simply nodded with an unusual smile. She looked confused and tensed that got me wondering for all the reasons that could make her worry. Later I found out that it was one of her usual simple worries, this time she hadn’t prepared for our class test supposed to be on that day’s evening. I realized that wasn’t the right time to confess and decided to wait.
Class begun and everyone busied themselves in their works. I felt that Ashwin too, looked frustrated and disturbed. He was unusually nervous and I had never seen him like that in my past years with him. He too might be worried about his proposal to his loved one. I didn’t have any clue about Ashwin’s girl, Why would I ?, we both were in equal terms that all Indians are our brothers and cousin sisters, So she might be the one among the million or the start for the millions, yet to come in his life. Now, I have my own thing to worry.
Lunch bell rang. Aasha and I headed for the canteen and Ashwin wasn’t with us, might be meeting his girl friend. I weren’t worrying about him and his girl but myself and how I should express my love to Aasha. That’s the only thing on my head but she still looked upset. I slowly started, “Hey Aasha, I have an important matter to tell you.” She nodded without looking at me as if I were gonna ask her some potato chips from her plate. I could see that she was completely out in her own world and couldn’t realize what was on my head. I stopped my conversation and stared at her. At last she turned towards me but asked, “Is there gonna be an exam today, for sure?”
God! She had completely forgotten the Valentine’s day. I realized that I had to calm her first. Suddenly a big plan popped up on my head and so I said, “No, there won’t be any exam today.” She jolts back on her seat and stared at me curiously with her bright big eyes full of surprise and asked me, “How?” I smiled and stepped towards the class. She started hopping around me with curiosity and excitement asking multiple questions about the exam. At last I asked her, “If there is no test today, you should accept whatever I say, deal ?” She had a cute smile on her face as she moved towards her desk. I went near her and asked again, “Deal or not?” She faced down, smiled shyly and said, “Deal.” I realized at that moment that she already knew what I was gonna tell her.
It was Chemistry class and everyone was pretty much interested on the other chemistry on that day. Mean while the hour after the chemistry class was the chemistry unit test as they said. It was only few minutes away from it and the girl near me is pretty much eager on watching what I am going to do. The thing is that I am not gonna do anything because I have no idea but I made a promise to her. But how?. Suddenly Ashwin entered the class. He was bit late to the class after the lunch break but it doesn't matter on this chemistry class because this particular staff has a particular sets of skills. Skills that makes everyone die in  laughter. Yes, she(the staff) is quite a funny lecturer and she always make everyone laugh by sleeping in the class as if she is reading both organic and inorganic chemistry at the same time. Now you might understand how silly , Aasha was. She was afraid of this staff's unit test, that evening. But the real thing is I like her innocence and that makes me love her deeper and stronger.
 Its already time for the unit test. The staff was ready to go for it and I was lacking an idea. I suddenly turned towards Ashwin and I narrated the situation to him. He was serious from the moment he reached  the class as if he missed something. But all of a sudden when I asked him for an idea, his face became fresh and he started to think for me. I didn't know what was the problem with him. He is really serious before but only for my sake he was up and ready with a smile to help me. I felt that I had the greatest friend.
Bell rang and the final hour starts. Now Ashwin was ready with an idea and he wants me to lend my ears as if he was going to tell me a military secret. I heard his idea and then I had a niggling smile. By seeing both of us Aasha went mad and started asking both of us,"Hey you idiots! Tell me.. What's the plan?". We continued laughing.
With a rough voice the staff added,"Come on students! Its time for your exam.". After she announced, there was a loud chorus from everyone, asking permission for 5 mins to prepare well. With a stiff voice she replied, "Okay. But only 5 mins and after that you must start writing."
There was a clock hanging on the wall, at the back of the class, which was facing towards the staff. It's 3:00 pm. As I told before the staff started to sleep, as all of us were murmuring the texts. Then, Ashwin said ready, go. I silently went towards the clock and tried to take it from the hook on the wall. As I was 6 feet tall, it was quite easy for me to remove it from the wall. Everything happened as she was sleeping. All the students were eagerly seeing her and then me, they were curiously watching out for me, that she was awake or not.
I was sweating and curious in moving the minute hand in reverse direction. The actual time in the clock was 3:15 pm, but I reversed it to 3:05. Then I hung it back and came to seat in a second. As she woke up and was about to tell something but all of a sudden she saw the clock and said, "I feel today the time is going very slow and its also helping for your exam." Everyone with a giggling sound turned towards me, one bye one. Everyone was trying to act as if they were studying by having the book in their hands, but actually they were waiting for her to fall asleep again. But she was watching us with a bright face as if she just woke up from a morning slumber.
The time was already 3:15 in the clock. Turning aside, She was watching something outside the window. Everyone was tensed that she was gonna turn and ask us to start the exam. But it was almost more than 5 mins, she never turned. I didn't know what she was admiring. Ashwin slowly went up closer to her as like asking a doubt. Actually he saw her sleeping, facing the other side, all this time. He signaled me go again and modify the time in the clock. "Me???, Not again!!!", was my reaction. Everyone was bullying me with their looks to make me do this, now I have no choice . I must do. With all these interesting hilariousness going around, the girl nearby me is seriously praying for the postponement of the exam, typical Aasha. Once again I slowly stepped and tried to take the clock.
This time it easy for me, since I got used to it by now. I took it and I adjusted the time by noting down the reactions from all directions. Then, the time was 3:17, but I once again I reversed it to 3:07. As the clock was about to be placed on the hook, a huge vibrating noise broke out. It was from Akash, one of our classmate. He sneezed with such a strong sound. Due to the intensity of the sound, the clock slipped away from my hand on to the floor, the two batteries of the clock were rolling towards the corner of the classroom. Everyone froze and they turned slowly to see the staff. She woke up with a subtle jerk. There was no clock on the wall. I picked up the clock and was hiding it on my back and started to blink like Aasha. This moment brought heart attack to everyone of us. We almost thought everything was gone.
But Ashwin saved the day. Since, Ashwin was standing near her, when she woke he took his book in front of her and started to ask rapid doubts. Thank God !, If he wasn't there, certainly nothing would have helped us. Everyone took a deep breath. They turned towards Aakash and were staring at him. He laughed with a reaction symbolising that he couldn't help it and he told me to place the clock soon before he sneezes again. But this time I need to put it back on the wall, by having her looking at us. Ashwin had very few seconds to manage so I need to make it quick. From each corner they threw the battery to me and I placed it on the holder with shaky hands.When I was about to  place the clock on the wall, she scolded Ashwin not to ask silly doubts and made him to get back to his place. I was the only one standing straight in front of her, also holding the clock behind me. She saw me and inquired that why I was standing and what was I hiding behind me. I was totally speechless, not only me, but everyone. With all blah blah blah I start to blabber something.
Suddenly, Kumar anna came with the attendance register. With very little time, As she turned towards him, I hung it on the wall and with the same momentum  Aasha threw me the book as if I was holding it behind. Everyone started to clap at Kumar anna and many start to whistle too, for his timely entry. He smiled with a proud look on his face, as if he is in front of his fans. As he left, I showed my book to her and I told that I was standing and reading, in order to get it registered in my mind. She looked at me with pride, as if she was seeing a state rank holder. By then she saw the clock. With a laugh, she said, "See! its just three minutes passed, but I felt like half an hour". Akash, Vishok and Bibu reacted as if they were eager to write exam by saying ,"we are eager to write ma'm". Everyone was enjoying the moment, especially me and Aasha. Smiles on everyone face as if achieving a gold medal in Olympics. "Okay children. All of you start writing your exam".The very moment she completed the phrase, the bell rang.
She was totally confused and said why they rang the bell so early. Ashwin stood up and said,"let me verify with Kumar anna and report to you ma'm". As Ashwin was moving outside the class, she heard the sound of the students moving out of classroom from every floor. Thus, She turned towards the clock and was about to say something. Before she could even start, everyone started to overact and made a melodrama as if they missed out the test and many girls about to cry, acting of course. Her face turned more proud and she said, "Don't worry children. Its not your fault. The clock cheated us. Don't worry. I will bring a new set of batteries for your class ". By saying these words she went out of the class with happy tears. After she moved everyone started laughing, jumping and hugging me in joy.
Almost the day went like a thriller. My eyes were starting to search for Aasha, in this crowd. It was all for her. If it was not for her, this kind of joy could have never happened. My eyes found her. Gosh!, she is smiling at me, this is it. I started to move slowly towards her, in the midst of this happy roaring crowd. She also started to make little steps towards me. What a perfect moment to propose. She knew that I am gonna propose now and I too knew the result. She was just a few centimeters away from me. Almost I felt like I can feel her breath. With smiles and expectations on both the faces. I was about to say, "I......". All of a sudden Jessica dragged her from me and gave Aasha a tight slap. The sound of the slap penetrated my heart like a bullet. She threw a chart at Aasha's face and said, "how dare you filthy bi*&#. Why the f@#* did you stick my face on the door of ladies restroom". The chart slowly flew in air and was at my feet. It was a pencil sketch of Jessica's face. And it was a "pink chart".

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #7

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#LoveAndJoy
It was the first time a person mentioned my  name. Yes, I am Ashwath. But that doesn't matter. The only thing that mattered was Jessica Magnus. "But how come she know my name?" might be the question running in your mind.
I stared back at her with a surprise along with a frightened look. I had a pretty tough experience with her during my school days. She was a kind of a mean girl. She always tries to dominate others with her cold behavior. That's why I wore an annoying reaction on my face. But, it was she who called me, so it wasn't a bad thing to smile back at her. Probably she might have changed, after these years.
We both did our schooling in Bangalore. She is actually from Bangalore, but I studied there by boarding the school's hostel. I literally hate my school days due to some tough times, more importantly she was one among them who caused me the considerable amount of trouble. I hoped that all those were over, as I had completed my school.
Thus, I replied her, "Hey what a surprise! How are you?". She replied me with an unusual smile,"How do I look to you?". Guess, she hasn't changed a bit from school,  same as she was, from school, but with better smile than in past. We started to have a chit chat about the very few nicest things about our past. And we also shared info about how we had joined in the very same college, then.
All of a sudden I was feeling that someone was watching all this, so I turned. It was Aasha and Ashwin. They were staring at us all time, in order to get a peek into who I am talking to. And also they were confused on seeing me talking so casually with a new girl. Ashwin wore a smile, he then turned and started walking towards the dorm and shouted on his way that he will be waiting for me in the canteen. He pretended as if he was not willing to disturbing us. This commonly happens with boys, when his friend talks to a girl. But I saw a different reaction from Aasha's face. It was also the common girl's reaction, but they usually try hiding it, but it was quite obviously visible on her face, that day,even tough it was only 7hrs that I spent with her in class but I could understand what she was feeling. She came near and tried asking something to me but she felt quite disturbed by Jessica. I gave a smile and said silent bye to her. She replied  bye with a slow and a low voice which was quite annoying.
Within few minutes, Jessica also departed. Her driver came to pick her up. It was a Black BMW.  And the  number was TN 01 JM 719. She moved on by telling bye.
Then I started walking back in to the canteen. Ashwin might be waiting for me there, I thought, I normally have the name of being the late customer. Probably he might have been waiting for quite a long time. So I started rushing toward the inner pantry to find them. There they were.  Ashwin and Aasha waiting for me. It was quite awesome to see friends like them roaming every where, united and also I just hoped that they where just friends. I reached their table, Aasha was telling to Ashwin, "Want to go home early, So order soon. I want one veg-puff". I understood that she was running out of time and  I was the cause for the delay. She looked quite disturbed, might be because of me. I started to ask her something but at the same time Ashwin triggered a question at me,"What do you want dude, puff or.....". I replied,"Yes the same.". And  he joined the queue to buy those puffs.
Probably the queue length intimated me that it might take some time for order to be taken, so I got some time to talk with the girl in front of me. But I felt she is not ready to talk with as if she is turning towards the wall and looking through the window and curling her hair with a pen. Gosh!, she is really beautiful. Only in these rush hours we boys find time to admire a girl like Aasha. All of a sudden she turned towards me and I was caught. I started blabbering, in order to hide that I was admiring her beauty. She stopped me with a stiff voice ,  "Your School mate?". I actually didn't expect that she would be asking this question. This might have been the thing which was running in her mind form the time she saw me talking with Jesiccca.
Oh! finally I got the answer for her silence, not exactly, but this is a confirmation for something which I already knew. Then I replied her,"Yeah, she is just one my school mates. I haven't talked to her much during the school times and this was probably my first lengthy conversation with her".She replied,"Ohh,... Okay Okay". I hoped that words might have comforted her, I supposed. Her face bloomed after that, might have been her natural way of retreating after getting her question answered. Then I started to talk with her which automatically started to look like flirty conversation. To err is human. When everything was going nice suddenly a puff came in between us. Yup! it was a veg-puff. And it was Ashwin  who came with the puffs, From then on, I started calling him as puffs, and then the whole college started calling him the same.
Aasha started to come in her two wheeler to college. It was a "Bajaj Krystal". Me and puffs always used to walk her to the parking lot daily and only after biding her a bye we would walk towards the hostel, talking a whole lot of  things. And one fine day, the evening routine of bye bye was done and we started to walk tot eh hostel, but suddenly, Aasha's voice came into my ears, "Hey! Ashwath!, do you have a drafter?.Because I have a spare on my scooty,If you want one come now and get it.". Instantly I turned towards Ashwin as if I was asking for a permission. He laughed at me and said, "Just go and get it man, I will be waiting for you in the hostel".
Finally, I got some private time to talk with her. We started to walk together, instead of riding her bike she was literally dragging her bike with me walking by her side, guess she wasn't in a hurry today. We were discussing about our childhood, family etc. By then, I came to know that she was playful and fun loving as like a jumping bean. And also she did not have a licence to drive, but she drives a bike, pretty daring too. She is a kind of girl who try to do all kind of modern day activities, even though it doesn't suit her.
I received the drafter in my hand only after going half way down the college gate, on saying a bye, she raced on her way as I started walking back to the hostel.This time though, with more smiles. I was literally flying above cloud nine. Actually, that was the moment, I felt that I've attained something, which I was missing in my past. I turned and looked at her racing towards the gate. There I saw "Kumar Anna". He was the watchman, peon and all in all, in our college. He use to wave bye mostly to everyone in the college, especially to Aasha. When she comes in her bike, he makes an arrangement that the gate was fully opened up and clears the path as like a traffic policeman. First I thought he too is trying to impress her by doing this. But later, I came to know about that funny incident. Yes, During the starting of the first academic year, she drove straight into the gate and dropped her scooty down and was blinking like the comedy actor "Senthil". It was happening frequently and thats why Kumar anna did all these preparations.
But she had failed this time also. lol.. I came to know that a accident can happen even with these kinda dead speed bike. she was only travelling at 12 kmph.
Kumar anna lifted her vehicle by saying, "Wicket number 20", she was standing near the bike in the same way, like the previous 19 times. By hearing him and seeing her standing that way, I could not control my laughter, I was laughing loudly with tears in my eyes. Even the guys could have heard my laughter. Only after I slowing down with my laughing I came to notice that Aasha was staring at me with anger and a bit of tears on her eyes. Man! why should she cry for this??. Girls are girls. Its very natural for me to laugh on seeing a person in such a situation, but, its Aasha. "Oh please! forgive me this time please, I ll try not to laugh the next time, ha ha" was the message conveyed to her through my gesture.
Since, I was just 50 meters away from her and she started to rush towards me with all her anger mounted on her face which was about to come out in the form of tears. She came near me without uttering a word, she just plucked the drafter from my hands and went on to start her bike and drove towards the gate again.  I was speechless at that moment.Was I wrong?,  I might have been, I thought. I was left blank , so I did not realize that I should have told the words, "I am Sorry", to her. Because my act of laughter during her crisis time, even though it was funny, might have hurted her, because,as I told you, she was very childish. She looked back at me and raced out of the gate once again.
Crrraaaash!!!....
Again i heard a Tyre screeching sound, along with a high pitched human tone. It was Kumar anna shouting in pain. Oh no....!!! she had hit Kumar anna's  middle portion ( probably the groin), this time. He was jumping in pain. HA HA HA!!!, No way that I was going to control my laughter this time ha,.. ha.... ha....
To be continued...! 

Monday, March 24, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #6

#YearsBack
Chennai, September 3. My first day at college. I was so excited and filled with joy to get into that new place. I started searching for my class on each floor and in every wing, like a passenger searching for a train, as like I am gonna miss everything, if I am late to the first day class.
Such a big college it was and all my efforts to find my new class were in vain, I know that I was getting late, but I don't wanna ask directions to any other student, because  I don't wanna get ragged at any cost. At last, I found someone, attender I suppose, to whom I asked, “Where is the first year IT department class?” He pointed out in some direction, where there were nearly 10 classes in a row, and he walked away. Why is everyone giving a vague answer here?? God!!!, unknowingly I dashed my head on the wall.
Suddenly a voice behind me called, “What pa…? Which class are you?” I wasn’t going to turn back, but the energy in that voice made me turn. I told, “1 year IT class.” With an encouraging smile he told, “Come with me, I will show your class.” Hearing his words, I got back my lost energy and followed his lead. He showed me a class already filled with students and got in with me. I realized that he was going to take our first class of my college life.
Finding the class is just one part of your first day and there is this other important part called, finding the place in the class. That’s the important duty of all the Engineering students, as the seating position decides the path of one’s future. The friends, fun and memories that we will make in the future depends on where we sit in class, that was my belief. I am never gonna sit in the first bench even if it is totally empty and definitely not in the last bench. I started to look at everyone’s face in the class searching for my new, yet to be friend.
Every face had different variations of the same expression called excitement. When it comes to seating, The thing is every bench can accomodate only 3 people. At last I found a place, near 2 guys, Vishok and his friend Bibu. Bibu moved a little, making space for me but Vishok didn’t budge. I realized that Vishok didn’t like any more addition in his bench but the lecturer called, “Please, settle down everyone”. I was helpless and so I decided to push Vishok and sit near him.
Suddenly someone on my right called, “Hey boss!, come here. Have a seat.” Finally I was seated and the guy who called me talked again, “Hi macha… I am Ashwin.” With excitement I started to reply, but another voice from the other side of our bench came to my ears like a cold breeze saying, “Hi!, this is Aasha!”
Yes, I met my two best buddies of my college days that day and that was my bench. Usually, when a girl casually introduces herself to a boy with a pleased expression, most of the boys will be speechless. I too had the same feeling, after all I was also a normal boy.
Our introduction session was disturbed by the person on the dais, “Ahem!” Of course, that was our lecturer. Being caught by the lecturer, we smiled sheepishly and turned our attention towards the class. He smiled and introduced himself as, “I am Kathirvel. And I am gonna be your class mentor.” He is a great person, whom I've ever met in my life. I always liked his courage and the way he communicated with everyone. He always said, “I am your teacher and you are not kids anymore.” This meant that we need to be more responsible to ourselves. In every class, I heard the chattering and mocking noise from my next bench where Vishok and Bibu were seated. Vishok was getting beatings from his friend Bibu every time and the sound stunned us all now and then in every class. I really didn’t know how he could bare that pain but they were 2 good buddies and Bibu had this kind and helpful habit and would do anything for his friends.
With all these new people around me, my first hour class of my first day got to its end successfully. All of a sudden, I heard someone calling me from behind, as I turned, I heard her voice, “Hi Ashwath!, I am Jessica…. Jessica Magnus. How are you?”
to be continued...

Monday, March 17, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #5

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#TwistInTheTale
JESSICA MAGNUS. This name ran inside my head like a marquee tag, again and again burning my insides. I didn't expect her to be the one, but the chances were high for her to be the suspect. Why? Why would she? If not her, then who could it be? Aah!, my head. It hurts… She reminded me of those painful memories that I never wanted to remember, those are the memories from my college days.
Dhilip was confused as he heard me muttering her name. It was his time to look at me then, for me to say something. With expectations in his eyes, he was looking at me to say more. But I was coupled with confusion and  anger. If it was gonna be her, I might become mad, very mad indeed. I was lost in my own thoughts, saying nothing, to Dhilip.
We were again in his car. I was speechless. Dhilip often glanced at me, trying to get some hints out of my reactions, And I knew he was expecting me to talk more about the name I referred earlier that day. But I kept quiet. I didn't want to talk about her because the thing happened during my college days was a pure nightmare, I didn't like to remember those worst times, because I had already put those behind me.
We reached my home. I stepped out and started towards the door without a word being spoken to Dhilip. He understood my state of mind and started his car saying, “Call me when you are free. Let’s meet at Thiruvanmiyur RTO's office on Monday.” I made  a gesture that I heard his word. But I couldn't  reply, so I just stepped into my door.
I sat on my couch. I was hurt, confused and was going crazy by the turn of events. "What the hell is happening around me? ARGHHHH!!!!", I shouted in reality. My sister came rushing towards me at once, out of the kitchen. I saw the look of concern and worry on her face. I gave her a nod to tell her that I was Okay. With a confused expression on her face she went back into the kitchen. I sat back and tried to relax. The fluttering door curtain tickled my face, which made me turn towards the window. There I saw the photo of ‘The Four Friends’, me, Aasha, Jessica and ASHWIN.
Ashwin, my second best pal after Dhilip. I knew him only during the college days, yet we made a thick bond of friendship. Together we had a great time. In fact, his friendship indeed helped me to find my love, Aasha. Ashwin and Aasha were childhood friends as like Dhilip and me. But they were entirely different, not only in their gender, but also in their characteristics.
But the thing is not about them but, Jessica Magnus.
To know about Jessica Magnus, I should rewind to my past. Only then I could arrange my thoughts and reload all those happenings in my mind. So, Its time now to tell you my past; My college days…..
to be continued..

Sunday, March 9, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #4

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#The wake-up call
EXECUTION..! When I heard this word I certainly didn't know how to react. Obviously no one knows. It was already 16 days after that cruel accident which took my wife away from me. But still me or none could figure out how or why the accident took place. Police just concluded it to be a 'hit and run' and as usual the police investigation in finding the careless driver of the car will go along with their search for the other 50,000 'hit and run' cases in the city. Every one thought it is just an accident which usually happens in a city like Chennai city. But in my case at least I should have noticed something that day, but I was stunned and was only able to cry all these days, but Dhilip does know something, even though he wasn't in the scene. I already told that he is a different and practical man, who never gets caught up by the situation. But 'how he knows it?','what does he know?' and 'why we are here?!..' These are all the questions which were scrolling on my mind. On the inside, I was excepting him to answer all these questions. And finally he did open his mouth.
Dhilip told me that he was roaming that bus-stop for the past 15 days. He was really upset for what happened to me and he was seriously determined in knowing what actually happen that day at the bus-stop. He was talking to all strangers who were there at the bus-stop, to know what actually happen that day. I was really blessed with such a great friend. He has taken everything in his own hand and has worked restlessly to find this out.
When he was talking with everyone who comes to that bus-stop daily, he repeatedly heard the same sentence from everyone "A big black car!"
Its was pretty obvious that everyone remember only the color but nothing else since the number plates are too tediously designed these days, in order to make it harder to recognize, in the name of style .
As a part of his investigation, Dhilip headed to the tea-shop which was half the distance between my home and the bus stop, but still a visible sight from the accident spot.There he got a bit of a different answer. Actually the same black car sentence but additional to it he came to know that a similar car followed my wife, daily.
I don't even have a guess that who might it be? Obviously there is none. But there might be someone out there whom I might not have noticed all these days. But there must have been a chance for her to notice it, since it is said to have happened daily. But why she didn't tell me any such thing. Who is this Mr. Bloody Black car? did Dhilip find who it is? and Is that why we came here?
Finally I got answer for all my questions. He said that was fortunate to have one of his old  friends at that bus-stop, at the day of the accident. His name is Chandru. He gave him the valuable information about the culprit who trashed my life. There are always people who show much interest on cars and automobiles and Chandru is one among them, In addition to that he is an automobile engineer too, who works at FIAT. He really helped dhilip to find the car's number by giving the car's model name.Its an Audi Car. And he also remembered the number as it was a fancy one.He said "The number is...."
Suddenly the RTO officer came into the room. Dhilip stopped his conversation with me and started looking at the officer. Probably he was going to ask for the address of the car number to which it is being registered. I knew why we were there. The officer opened the long dusty note book scanned over all the pages inorder to search the car owner's identity. We both were curiously looking at the officer and finally the officer came to a conclusion that a page was missing, which I know was a pretty usual twist in all these kinda scenarios, even as per the logic s of a Tamil movie. But he told us that there is a possibility of a storage of those details on PC's at their alternate office in Thiruvanmiyur. "Probably, we can't get it by today because it is already late and for the next two days won't be a working day as it is a weekend", he said. So we need to wait for two days to know who the bloody bastard was.
Actually Dhilip was so ambitious on getting his address. He sighed in distress with his head down, with an annoying sound. I was also feeling the same that time, but more than that I was just confused because of the truth which are being revealed. Suddenly, I turned towards Dhilip and asked him the car number. He passed me a piece of paper.
It was  TN 01 JM 917.
Oh My God!.... Its.....Her....? or Not? May be?... But Why?..
By hearing those words Dhilip got shaken and questioned me whether anything struck my mind? or was it a known son of a bi***?
With agony in my eyes, I him replied with pure anger.
"Jessica Magnus"!
to be continued...

Sunday, March 2, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #3

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#NewLife
Everything is over… I just had to forget everything that happened and start a new life. I tried. I went to office. Since I couldn't cross the bus stop without allowing her memories to pop-up in my heart, I took the train. I walked to the station everyday, which is 2 km away from my home, which I had never cared to use before, to get to my office.
I stepped into my office to the usual chatters, gossips, mocks, jokes and to all other noise of any office. I headed straight to my cubicle. As I moved towards my cubicle, I could feel that the sounds in my office was hitting a decreasing value like some volume control, it reduced gradually and when I sat on my chair it felt like that I had sat on a mute button, since everything turned silent. My office's crazy nuts is not used to these kinda serious situations. I knew at once that they all feel sorry for me and was trying to be considerate but eventually their effort to bring me back will fail. Since its been some considerable amount of days after the tragedy, I don't want to give them a tough time, So I laughed on seeing their sad faces, they were quizzed, even then so they smiled back in order not to make me look weird. With little awkwardness they came towards me, few hugs, nods and some sad smiles which I had to face before they all leave to their cabins. I sighed and started staring at my system. Suddenly I heard my colleague Anitha’s voice which was like an echo, Which guided me to the MD's office, since he wants a glance of me. God, again I must be stamping on that mute button as I walk. Then I realized that I had to get used to these awkwardness till everyone forgets about my past recent past.
As I entered his room, he greeted me with an unusual smile. Also he gave me the salary cover though it was just august 28th. Actually, It felt weird on being treated nice by him. But Its actually better than the awkward silence that I am experiencing now and then. As I got back to my work I felt that someone was peeping into my cabin. As I could guess it rightly every time, it was Anitha. Every office used to have this perfect iconic female employee, who takes charge of everything, not much of a talkative; But when does such responsible characters would end up in a good rapport with me?. I fought with her when I came initially to this office, also on the day before my wife passed away for which I really don't remember the reason. She knew that I had noticed her. So she came near my cabin and said hi. It was the first time that she talked to me politely, so I replied her back with a hi. She stood in front of me for nearly 5 mins before she awkwardly felt sorry for the things that happened and rushed back to her cubicle. I could understand that she felt sorry for my wife and for the little fight we had prior to all these incidents. Since she sits in the opposite cabin, I smiled at her as I was glancing around and she relaxed in her chair. Then I went on with my work. 1:30 p.m, lunch time.
I stood up and started towards the canteen by just checking my mobile without any reason, this has become a normal habit for everyone to check their mobile whenever they sit or stand from a place, to which I am also accustomed to. Within few steps my phone rang. I checked the caller. It was Dhilip, my best and only friend from childhood till date, at-least according to my knowledge. We had different goals in life, so we were separated during our college days. He didn't attend Aasha’s funeral, so he was calling me to apologize for that, I thought. But he was a very practical person and not as sensitive as normal human beings. I picked up the phone.
He said that he was waiting at my office and he ordered me to get permission and walk out of the office and into the parking lot. I had no choice as he wasn't requesting me. So I informed my MD and Anitha before leaving.
He was waiting there for me in his car. I got inside and we started. He was very silent. He didn't even ask or tell me anything. I thought that he would at-least ask about Aasha, but no, he didn't. I don’t usually want people to feel sorry for me or having pitiful looks towards me but he is my best pal and I just wished he cared a little. He wasn't conversing and so I asked him where were we going. He replied, “A place”. After hearing this I no longer tried to question him as I sat back on my seat quietly.
He stopped at the RTO's office and I had no idea why we were there. I walked with him and when he finally found some office personnel, we sat. The officer searched a large rack for some file. Then my friend turned towards me and asked me that do I remember what actually happened to my wife on august 12th. I didn’t expect that would be the first interactive word out of his mouth after all these years. Yet I replied him saying, “an accident”.
He had this curious look and a vexed smile on his face, he said these unbearable words, “No, it was an execution!!!”.
to be continued....

Saturday, February 22, 2014

I am Sorry... Episode #2

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#After16Days
It was terrible to wake up that morning, not only that but the rest of the days too. I didn't want to open my eyes. It was hard to see the world without her; deep pain piercing my heart each moment. But I had to wake up atleast that day to make my new start with life. So, I woke up.
A cup was placed near me on the side table. I sensed someone's presence in that room. I couldn't see clearly as I were half asleep. I couldn't see the person who came to my room. The cup had coffee that had the same exact taste as like hers. I was surprised and was going crazy, not knowing what was happening. Suddenly a voice from the kitchen said, " take your coffee and go bath soon, its already 7:30". I was shocked to hear that. It was her, I felt her presence, but I didn't had the slightest idea of all those happenings around me. Then her voice came again, now closer and I was in complete shock to see her standing at the door.
She smiled at me standing near the door and I got goosebumps. I felt like I were about to faint.
After that she moved inside the kitchen and started her work. I was stunned and there was that one question on the back of my head gnawing at my brain, " What the hell is happening here?" .I moved towards the kitchen and prepared myself to ask her the question on my head. I decided that what I actually thought to happen to me must be my dream. But it was already 16 days and I don't think a dream could travel like that unless I were in Inception part 2.
I knew that she was dead as she died in front of me. But what I couldn't understand how she made it back to our kitchen from dead.
Yes, there was a possibility. I forgot to mention something. On that day I went to drop her at the bus stop, I dashed into a tree. Did I faint??? Might be. And so I thought all that actually happened, to be my dream. Everything must be a dream, a nightmare.
At this thought I were so relieved and was happy to hear my wife again. I must be stupid to believe in that dream. I ran towards the kitchen to see her, my wife. I decided not to tell her about my stupid dream, afterall she was just a kid.(If I did she would start her bla bla...). I promised myself not to let her runaway from me and I wanted to spend my time with her that day. I was going to ask her to take leave but suddenly I felt pain on my head (must be a gift from the tree I dashed). I thought I must do something about that pain, then I decided to check out the breakfast first as I were hungry like I didn't had anything for 16 days.
With happiness swelling in my heart I entered the kitchen and saw.....
I was fainting again….
It was my sister.
My wife was dead. I am sorry aasha. I miss you.
to be continued....