I am Sorry... Episode #1

#August12

"Sorry.. Is the only word that makes a saint to a sinner and sinner to a saint;If i was wrong then I am sorry"

It was a raining Wednesday morning, that's the beginning of our story and obviously the end too.

I was waiting at the bus stop. It rained heavily. Heavy in the sense, as heavy as my love. Ya... she is 'Aasha', my last love. 'Last' refers that she is my wife and I was waiting for her. Time was exactly 8:45 and one more thing I missed, my umbrella. Not only for her, I was waiting for that too.

I used to go to my office at 8:00 a.m. I was late that day because of the late night work, I didn't sleep well, and the rain too helped me to have a long sleep till 8:00 a.m. But it was a nice day for me. After marriage that was the first time I was going to spend some time with my lovely wife. We both were busy on our own works. I didn't spend much time with her. I hoped that she also would feel pleased that day with my presents, while sending her off to office.

It was a special day for her. Ya... It was her Birthday. During our college days, on her birthday, I used to spend more time with her. But that was all over then! We lost all our small-small funny acts, yet we were happy. I hoped we were!

I started thinking about that for a moment; suddenly a face came in front of me like a 'spark'. Ya... It was Aasha. She came with an umbrella in her hand and a cute smile on her lips. Oh no... Not again. That was the only thing I couldn’t control without saying again and again. (Even now I start melting when I think about her smile… "??????? ???? " )

That was the day which no one would like to remember... but I do. Let’s start the story...

Today...August 12... The most exciting day of my life...

We started walking together on the side of the road, with the umbrella. We both were chatting about the shopping and the other weekend plans. I was on search of a new as my present job was not satisfactory and that was why I allowed her to go for a job; till I join a new company. I wasn’t happy with her decision to go for work but I felt it was just temporary and she too said the same. I was just a web designer with few creative skills (actually, very few). That was why I was not placed in a good company and I was searching for a better company eased my heart by telling the same. She was happy... Really really happy...Whatever she did, she did for me. We loved each other a lot.

We had chit chat about our college days and our sudden marriage... Yes, everything happened, all in a sudden. I had many problems to make her fall in love with me, but not even a single day they (parents) thought about that. It all happened like in movies. Ya, of course it was. This story also has suspense, sadness, thrill and at last, joy.

We had to cross the road from our house to reach the bus stop. She was working at CTS as a software  analyst.. But she never cared about that until we add another member into our family. I hope you understand...So I really was in need of a job and that was playing on my mind. She walked gently on the road as a sweet little melody... Sorry Sorry... A Illayaraja’s Melody... She walked like a song and I really heard that song which woke me up every day.

We reached 12 ft near the Bus stop. She came closer to me, rubbed my arm and told me, "you can go home and take some rest and I will come soon in the evening". Really that day I had that special feel, not to let her go away from me. I felt really bad to let her go to her office... Actually it was just third day on her job but I didn't had such weird feeling on the previous two occasion. I felt like dragging her and not to let her go. But she almost crossed half of the road and was few second away to get into the bus.

I wondered that she would  turn for a bye, or a smile or some nod... At least her face... Why did I react like that? Was I really that much mad about her? This happens in Love. I prayed to God to help me... That was my last wish; to make her look at me before she got in; As I grew anxious my heart repeatedly chanting - Would she, Or not........ Would she... Or not... Would...not...

So I decided to create some sound to make her turn back. I started to wonder, ‘What kind of sound should I make? A mobile ring? No, What if she didn’t hear? a bell,. no.. Hmm... Yes, a horn sound... that's a better idea to gain her attention .Now how can I make such sound??? I don't even have a bicycle then how can I produce it’. All of a sudden I heard a sound that was quite different. It was actually a honk of a car but it was different; so different that even caught my notice.

Finally that helped me to gain her attention. It was a wonderful feel. I finally made it. I loved her really, truly, madly and so deeply. I hoped she too would be happy on seeing me... But she wasn’t... really, she wasn’t... She started to stare at me. Not me, but something else that threatened her. I saw fear on her eyes. I couldn’t understand what made her to react like that. Was that me or someone else... or the honk? I just listened to the sound but I didn't see where the sound actually came from.

She can see that car as it was right behind me. I finally found out that the car was actually bullying her, but what could be the reason? I knew not. It all happened in a fraction of seconds. I turned towards the car and it crossed me like a bullet on fire. I can recognize it only as a black vehicle and nothing more.

After that, I forgot all the things that ever happened in my life, from the past till this moment; when I saw that vehicle crashed my wife....

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